Thursday, May 19, 2011

which the doctor has withheld from you. 'She wept all over our food.

 they are bound to go up
 they are bound to go up. I have shot more lions than any man alive. which made you hesitate how to take his outrageous utterances. While still a medical student I had published a novel called _Liza of Lambeth_ which caused a mild sensation. Haddo's eyes were fixed upon hers. from learned and vulgar. but small stars appeared to dance on the heather. Haddo has had an extraordinary experience. and so.''You see. for what most fascinated the observer was a supreme and disdainful indifference to the passion of others. It seemed to her that Haddo bade her cover her face. mingling with his own fantasies the perfect words of that essay which. All things about them appeared dumbly to suffer. She could only think of her appalling shame. but now and then others came. half cruel. and he kissed her lips. It had all the slim delicacy of a Japanese print. so I suppose it was written during the first six months of 1907. but have declined to gratify a frivolous curiosity.' answered Susie. stood over him helplessly. for he had been to Eton and to Cambridge. might forget easily that it was a goddess to whom he knelt. Suddenly Margaret became aware that Susie was deeply in love with Arthur Burdon. abundantly loquacious.

 though his corpulence added to his apparent age."'"I will hear no more. Rhases and Montagnana! After me. Dr Porho?t opened in person. and on the other side the uneven roofs of the Boulevard Saint Michel. The man collapsed bulkily to the floor. It was no less amusing than a play. He forced her to marry him by his beneficence. smiling. and she realized with a start that she was sitting quietly in the studio. but I can see to the end of my nose with extreme clearness.'I will go. When Margaret. and I was able to take a bedroom in the same building and use his sitting-room to work in. when he was arranging his journey in Asia. It was plain. Yet Margaret continued to discuss with him the arrangement of their house in Harley Street. as hotly.' she said sharply. And they surged onward like a riotous crowd in narrow streets flying in terror before the mounted troops.Susie flung herself down wearily in a chair. At last their motion ceased; and Oliver was holding her arm. disembarrass me of this coat of frieze. and a native friend of mine had often begged me to see him.' retorted Haddo. laughing. Eliphas was left alone.

She stood in the middle of the lofty studio. The surroundings were so commonplace that they seemed to emphasise his singularity. and was bitterly disappointed when she told him they could not. I had heard many tales of his prowess.'Having given the required promise Eliphas Levi was shown a collection of vestments and of magical instruments.' he said. Life was very pleasing. It was so well-formed for his age that one might have foretold his precious corpulence. Promise that you'll never forsake me. in baggy corduroys.'What on earth do you suppose he can do? He can't drop a brickbat on my head. she watched listlessly the people go to and fro. There was about it a staid. another on Monday afternoon. He was shabbily dressed. I gave him magical powers that Crowley. He reared up on his hind legs. her mind all aflame with those strange histories wherein fact and fancy were so wonderfully mingled. He had letters of introduction to various persons of distinction who concerned themselves with the supernatural.'You need not be frightened. His face. Though he preserved the amiable serenity which made him always so attractive. and darkness fell across her eyes. and Clayson. He forced her to marry him by his beneficence.'"No. And the immoral thing is that each of these little jabs is lovely.

 rather. to announce her intention of spending a couple of years in Paris to study art.''I wish you would write that life of Paracelsus which you suggest in your preface. and what he said was no less just than obvious.' she replied bluntly. She gave a little cry of surprise. and their fur stood right on end. He appeared to stand apart from human kind. Margaret knew well the part in which she sat. but to obey him.' answered Dr Porho?t. His heart beat quickly. The dog jumped down from Arthur's knee. It seemed to her that she had no power in her limbs. lightly. Forgetting that anyone else was in the room. The laugh and that uncanny glance. was horrible to look upon. hurrying along the streams of the earth.He opened the door. and she began again to lay eggs. barbers. however.Though these efforts of mine brought me very little money. he looked exactly like a Franz Hals; but he was dressed like the caricature of a Frenchman in a comic paper.'How stupid of me! I never noticed the postmark. Arthur turned to Margaret.

 by Count Franz-Josef von Thun. and sought vehemently to prevent herself. Count von K??ffstein. that Arthur in many ways was narrow. He moved cautiously among the heavy furniture. What did it mean? Susie could have cried out. Once there.''Of course you didn't tell him that I insisted on buying every stitch you'd got on. who offered sacrifice before this fair image. He had a great quantity of curling hair. Margaret hoped fervently that he would not come. Margaret neither moved nor spoke. Susie watched to see what the dog would do and was by this time not surprised to see a change come over it. and she could have screamed as she felt him look at them. and her pity waned as he seemed to recover. The experimenter then took some grain.She stood in the middle of the lofty studio. I can show you a complete magical cabinet. something of unsatisfied desire and of longing for unhuman passions. as she helped herself.'Come here. If I were a suspicious woman. Sooner or later you run across persons who believe in everything. His arm continued for several days to be numb and painful. for his appearance and his manner were remarkable. which is in my possession. She reproached Arthur in her heart because he had never understood what was in her.

 The vivacious crowd was given over with all its heart to the pleasure of the fleeting moment. Man can know nothing. but we luckily found a middle-aged gentleman who wished to install his mistress in it. Steam bands thundered out the popular tunes of the moment. you will already have heard of his relationship with various noble houses. The smile. Then I thought she might have hit upon that time by chance and was not coming from England. He had a more varied knowledge than the greater part of undergraduates. Margaret wished to take the opportunity of leaving him. and he sat in complete shadow.'Miss Boyd. The bleeding stopped. I think I may say it without vanity. She was intoxicated with their beauty. She felt neither remorse nor revulsion. on a sudden. more vast than the creatures of nightmare.' she said dully._'She ran downstairs. Susie could have kissed the hard paving stones of the quay. He was very tall and had a magnificent figure. who believed it to be a miracle. The man had barely escaped death. but this touch somehow curiously emphasized her sex. His paunch was of imposing dimensions. Arthur was ridiculously happy. conscience-stricken.

 Haddo consented.'Oh. She could not understand the words that the priests chanted; their gestures. and beat upon his bleeding hands with a malice all too human. mildly ironic.''You know I cannot live without you. after more than the usual number of _ap??ritifs_. But though she watched in order to conceal her own secret. that Margaret could not restrain a sob of envy. The spirits were about a span long.''What is there to be afraid of?' she cried. She had asked if he was good-looking. hangmen. for his appearance and his manner were remarkable. It choked the two women. He fell into a deep coma. and at intervals the deep voice of the priest. it can be explained by none of the principles known to science. and I made up my mind to wait for the return of the lions. with the peculiar suddenness of a drop of water falling from a roof. love. They were frightened and disgusted. with lifted finger. All that he had said. who gave an order to his wife. When the lady raised her veil. and it stopped as soon as he took it away.

 if evidence as conclusive were offered of any other historical event.''If you knew how lonely I was and how unhappy. Susie would think her mad. painfully almost. Margaret and Arthur Burdon. and he never acknowledges merit in anyone till he's safely dead and buried. Can't you see the elderly lady in a huge crinoline and a black poke bonnet. without another word. It had a singular and pungent odour that Margaret did not know. It was plain. low laugh and stretched out her hand on the table. intolerable shame. 'but I agree with Miss Boyd that Oliver Haddo is the most extraordinary. a wealthy Hebrew. The champagne went quickly to her head. whose reputation in England was already considerable. I believe that we shall always be ignorant of the matters which it most behoves us to know. Everyone had put aside grave thoughts and sorrow.'I implore your acceptance of the only portrait now in existence of Oliver Haddo. and to surround your body with bands of grey flannel will certainly not increase your talent.' proceeded Susie.' she laughed.

 It was certain. You turn your eyes away from me as though I were unclean. they may achieve at last a power with which they can face the God of Heaven Himself. he was plainly making game of them. as hotly. there are some of us who choose to deal only with these exceptions to the common run. but to a likeness he had discovered in it to herself. The young women who had thrown in their lives with these painters were modest in demeanour and quiet in dress. she hurried to the address that Oliver Haddo had given her. Her nature was singularly truthful. like a man racked by torments who has not the strength even to realize that his agony has ceased. and it was plain that soon his reputation with the public would equal that which he had already won with the profession. I saw this gentleman every day. Suddenly it was extinguished. and she seemed still to see that vast bulk and the savage. who believed it to be a miracle. it pleased him to see it in others. and she felt on a sudden all the torments that wrung the heart of that unhappy queen; she. their movements to and fro.'If I wanted to get rid of you. His stillness got on her nerves. Miss Margaret admires you as much as you adore her.

 At least. She held out her hand to him. 'I don't know what is the matter with me.'Dr Porho?t closed the book. and trying to comfort it in its pain. 'You should be aware that science. to whom he would pay a handsome dowry. What could she expect when the God of her fathers left her to her fate? So that she might not weep in front of all those people. She chattered without pause and had the satisfaction presently of capturing their attention. I found life pleasant and I enjoyed myself.'And it's not as if there had been any doubt about our knowing our minds. as it were. He analysed Oliver Haddo's character with the patience of a scientific man studying a new species in which he is passionately concerned. With its tail between its legs. and began. In front was the turbid Seine. and his eye fell on a stout volume bound in vellum.'Can it matter to you if I forgive or not?''You have not pity. his own instinctive hatred of the man. It was a horribly painful sight.'He's frightened of me.'Go.

 Pretending not to see it. and a ragged black moustache.' he said.''Silly ass!' answered Arthur with emphasis. Margaret was the daughter of a country barrister. Raggles stood for rank and fashion at the Chien Noir.'But if the adept is active. by no means under the delusion that she had talent. She turned the drawings carelessly and presently came to a sheet upon which.Susie flung herself down wearily in a chair. and laughed heartily at her burlesque account of their fellow-students at Colarossi's. I think you would be inclined to say. The preparations for the journey were scarcely made when Margaret discovered by chance that her father had died penniless and she had lived ever since at Arthur's entire expense. bringing him to her friend.She did not see Susie. She understood how men had bartered their souls for infinite knowledge. Don't you think it must have been hard for me. and a native friend of mine had often begged me to see him.' he gasped. With a laugh Margaret remonstrated. Her busy life had not caused the years to pass easily. in which was all the sorrow of the world and all its wickedness.

_' she cried. He no longer struck you merely as an insignificant little man with hollow cheeks and a thin grey beard; for the weariness of expression which was habitual to him vanished before the charming sympathy of his smile. Steam bands thundered out the popular tunes of the moment. He leaned forward with eager face. she has been dead many times. and they in turn transmitted them from hand to hand. He sneered at the popular enthusiasm for games. an air pass by him; and. Many called it an insolent swagger. Raggles stood for rank and fashion at the Chien Noir. and. He did not seem to see her. If you do not guarantee this on your honour.'Would you like to go on anywhere?' he said. He was seated now with Margaret's terrier on his knees. The young women who had thrown in their lives with these painters were modest in demeanour and quiet in dress. I made my character more striking in appearance. for she knew now that she had no money. I have studied their experiments. His brown eyes were veiled with sudden melancholy. who does all the illustrations for _La Semaine_. as Susie.

 the terrier sprang at Oliver Haddo and fixed its teeth in his hand. Margaret watched their faces.Oliver Haddo seemed extraordinarily fascinated. but I never ceased cordially to dislike him.Susie got up to light a cigarette. At length he thought the time was ripe for the final step. They were stained with iron-mould. of unimaginable grace and feeling and distinction--you can never see Paris in the same way again. and still they went quickly. He commanded it to return. I tried to find out what he had been up to. hastened to explain. some of which were friendly to man and others hostile. wore a green turban. and over the landscapes brooded a wan spirit of evil that was very troubling. her tact so sure. Suddenly. If he shoots me he'll get his head cut off.FRANK HURRELLArthur. who smarted still under Haddo's insolence. my dear Clayson.''I shall never try to make it.

 as soon as I was 'qualified'. and it opened. and the pitiful graces which attempt a fascination that the hurrying years have rendered vain.In the few days of their acquaintance Arthur and Susie had arrived at terms of pleasant familiarity.' he said. to announce her intention of spending a couple of years in Paris to study art. he found a note in his room. for he had been to Eton and to Cambridge. They were made in five weeks. my O'Brien. One of these casual visitors was Aleister Crowley. lovely and hideous; and love and hate.'I have made all the necessary arrangements. was unexpected in connexion with him. notwithstanding pieces of silk hung here and there on the walls.' he said. A sudden trembling came over her. 'Whenever I've really wanted anything. who gave an order to his wife. I felt I must get out of it. His voice was different now and curiously seductive.'Hasn't he had too much to drink?' asked Arthur frigidly.

''I should have thought you could have demolished them by the effects of your oratory. who for ten years had earned an average of one hundred pounds a year.'But what is to become of me?''You will marry the excellent Mr Burdon. His chief distinction was a greatcoat he wore. if not a master. She hid her face in her hands and burst into tears. showed that he was no fool. priceless gems.'How beautifully you're dressed!' he had said. Of late she had not dared.'But Miss Dauncey has none of that narrowness of outlook which. He went out alone one night on the trail of three lions and killed them all before morning with one shot each. regaining immediately his portentous flippancy.' answered Dr Porho?t. with his puzzling smile. Her mouth was large. She gave a bitter laugh. and mysterious crimes. very small at first. and Susie noticed that he was pleased to see people point him out to one another. and his unnatural eyes were fixed on the charmer with an indescribable expression.'Marie.

 for what most fascinated the observer was a supreme and disdainful indifference to the passion of others.' she said. with its spiritual ambition and imaginative loves. The fragrance of the East filled her nostrils.''That is an answer which has the advantage of sounding well and meaning nothing. Her face was hidden by a long veil. The church which was thereupon erected is still a well-known place for pilgrimage. my friend. 'I shall die in the street. and others it ruled by fear. 'I assert merely that. The grass was scattered with the fallen leaves. I daresay it was a pretty piece of vituperation.There was a knock at the door; and Margaret. But though they were so natural. When I scrambled to my feet I found that she was dying. with his round. I had heard many tales of his prowess. and his wife presently abandoned the marital roof with her lover. 'I'll bring you everything you want.'Arthur gave a little laugh and pressed her hand. or is he laughing up his sleeve at the folly of those who take him seriously? I cannot tell.

 Susie's talent for dress was remarkable. They threw a strange light.'Don't be afraid. Arthur received Frank Hurrell's answer to his letter. Don't you think it must have been hard for me. emerald and ruby.'"No. or lecturing at his hospital. and sought vehemently to prevent herself. I do not know whether the account of it is true.'This statement. the charming statue known as _La Diane de Gabies_. but I couldn't see that it was leading me anywhere.''I have not finished yet. but I must require of you first the most inviolable silence. with a hateful smile on his face. It appears that one of his friends prepared the remedy. for Moses de Leon had composed _Zohar_ out of his own head. and some excellent pea-soup. dark fellow with strongly-marked features. I suppose he offered the charm of the unexpected to that mass of undergraduates who. He missed being ungainly only through the serenity of his self-reliance.

 I didn't know before. The gibe at his obesity had caught him on the raw. but his remained parallel. and his nose delicately shaped.'The night had fallen; but it was not the comfortable night that soothes the troubled minds of mortal men; it was a night that agitated the soul mysteriously so that each nerve in the body tingled. There was a trace of moisture in them still. and the eyelids are a little weary. The magician bowed solemnly as he was in turn made known to Susie Boyd. and he had no fear of failure. the sorcerer.'Arthur Burdon had just arrived in Paris. I tremble in every limb at the thought of your unmitigated scorn. but this touch somehow curiously emphasized her sex. There's no place like Paris for meeting queer folk. for it seemed that her last hope was gone. It gave them a singular expression. Her taste was so great. The most interesting part of his life is that which the absence of documents makes it impossible accurately to describe. but got nearer to it than anyone had done before. It confers wealth by the transmutation of metals and immortality by its quintessence. conscience-stricken. I thought no harm could come if I sent for the sorcerer.

 she was able to make her cut more pointed. Dr Porho?t had lent her his entertaining work on the old alchemists. that the seen is the measure of the unseen. It seemed that he had never seen anything so ravishing as the way in which she bent over the kettle. judged it would be vulgar to turn up her nose. '_Je vous aime tous. have been proud to give their daughters to my house. Serpents very poisonous. he had made an ascent of K2 in the Hindu Kush. He took an infinitesimal quantity of a blue powder that it contained and threw it on the water in the brass bowl.'Next to me is Madame Meyer. and educated secretly in Eastern palaces. But the daughter of Herodias raised her hands as though. It was one of the greatest alchemical mysteries. Her heart gave a great beat against her chest. They were therefore buried under two cartloads of manure.' said Miss Boyd. I haven't seen any of his work. Arthur found himself the girl's guardian and executor. looked at him curiously.The music was beautiful. caught up by a curious excitement.

 I do not remember how I came to think that Aleister Crowley might serve as the model for the character whom I called Oliver Haddo; nor. straight eyes remained upon Arthur without expression. 'I couldn't make out what had become of you. and so he died. Hastily I slipped another cartridge in my rifle. She might have been under a spell.'Nothing. It is commonly known as Cleopatra's Asp. was common to all my informants. but their wan decay little served to give a touch of nature to the artifice of all besides. for Moses de Leon had composed _Zohar_ out of his own head. but immensely reliable and trustworthy to the bottom of his soul. who brightened on hearing the language of his own country.'Marie brought him the bill of fare. that she was able to make the most of herself. but from an extraordinary fear. His form was lean. but he has absolutely _no_ talent. It was so unexpected that she was terrified. to occupy myself only with folly.Miss Boyd was beginning to tear him gaily limb from limb. and she responded to his words like a delicate instrument made for recording the beatings of the heart.

 making more and more friends. The manager of the Court Theatre.'But water cannot burn. quivering still with the extremity of passion. it flew to the green woods and the storm-beaten coasts of his native Brittany. I received a letter from the priest of the village in which she lived. Suddenly he began to speak. His manner and his conversation had the flamboyance of the romantic thirties.'She remembered that her train started exactly at that hour. It appears that he is not what is called a good sportsman. and three times he rubbed the wound with his fingers. He had proposed that they should go to Versailles. he dressed himself at unseasonable moments with excessive formality. however. was common to all my informants.'Haddo spoke in a low voice that was hardly steady. and kissed her with his heavy. Seen through his eyes. if her friend chaffed him. with faded finery. the humped backs.'He took down a slim volume in duodecimo.

'He always reminds me of an Aubrey Beardsley that's been dreadfully smudged. without colouring or troubling it. 'I should think you had sent it yourself to get me out of the way. 'I'm so afraid that something will happen to prevent us from being happy.'For the love of God. His behaviour surprised them. I can hardly bear my own unworthiness. They sat down beside the fire. You almost persuaded yourself to let me die in the street rather than stretch out to me a helping hand.' answered Margaret. She understood how men had bartered their souls for infinite knowledge. He is thought to have known more of the mysteries than any adept since the divine Paracelsus. by the desire to be as God. You speak with such gravity that we are all taken in. Haddo dwelt there as if he were apart from any habitation that might be his. which Raggles. some times attracted to a wealthy city by hope of gain.''What are you going to do?' asked Susie. but the wind of centuries had sought in vain to drag up its roots. The figure had not spoken. As though certain she set much store on it. take care of me.

 I feel that I deserved no less.'His name is not so ridiculous as later associations have made it seem. He set more twigs and perfumes on the brazier.''May I ask how you could distinguish the sex?' asked Arthur. touching devotion. There were many older ones also in bindings of calf and pigskin. and the darkness of death afflicted them always. Margaret. really. he resented the effect it had on him.' she said quickly. for you have the power to make him more unhappy than any human being should be. She greeted him with a passionate relief that was unusual. but the humour filled me with mortification. I feel your goodness and your purity. Even if she told him all that had passed he would not believe her; he would think she was suffering from some trick of her morbid fancy. and the same unconscious composure; and in her also breathed the spring odours of ineffable purity. sensual lips. and that her figure was exceedingly neat.'How stupid of me! I never noticed the postmark. Of late she had not dared. She had seen Arthur the evening before.

 But it was thought that in the same manner as man by his union with God had won a spark of divinity. _cerastes_ is the name under which you gentlemen of science know it. The two women were impressed. Then she heard him speak. curled over the head with an infinite grace. With its tail between its legs. and Susie gave it an inquisitive glance. My father left me a moderate income. He remained where he fell in utter helplessness. gnawing at a dead antelope. were obliged to follow. but I want him to be happy.' said Susie in an undertone. The silence was so great that each one heard the beating of his heart. Downstairs was a public room. which seemed to belie it. trying to control herself. 'Open your eyes and stand up. A gradual lethargy seized her under his baleful glance. and suggested that his sudden illness was but a device to get into the studio. very thin. I have studied their experiments.

 in a Breton _coiffe_. drunk.'Margaret could not hear what he said. The throng seemed bent with a kind of savagery upon amusement. The discovery was so astounding that at first it seemed absurd. disembarrass me of this coat of frieze. There were books everywhere. He seemed to have a positive instinct for operating.' he whispered. Susie willingly agreed to accompany her. hangmen.'I was educated at Eton. He seemed. My family has formed alliances with the most noble blood of England. and you that come from the islands of the sea.She did not see Susie. awkwardly. I can show you a complete magical cabinet. and Fustine was haggard with the eternal fires of lust. I have never been able to make up my mind whether he is an elaborate practical joker. and she busied herself with the preparations for tea with a housewifely grace that added a peculiar delicacy to her comeliness. he comes insensibly to share the opinion of many sensible men that perhaps there is something in it after all.

 at all events. began to kick him with all his might. and like a flash of lightning struck the rabbit. the clustered colours. and Arthur stood up to receive his cup.''One of my cherished ideas is that it is impossible to love without imagination. Now their lips met. and a large writing-table heaped up with books. But the Levantine merchant who was Arthur's father had been his most intimate friend. and see only an earthly maid fresh with youth and chastity and loveliness. She had never kissed him in that way before. no one was more conscious than Haddo of the singularity of his feat.' she answered frigidly. His sunken eyes glittered with a kindly but ironic good-humour. as if heated by a subterranean fire.'How often have I explained to you. the outcast son of the morning; and she dared not look upon his face. he had there a diverting brusqueness of demeanour which contrasted quaintly with his usual calm. He did not regret. and educated secretly in Eastern palaces. Montpellier. were extraordinarily significant.

''Oh. In any case he was contemptible. The expression was sombre. with paws pressed to their flanks. She hated herself. horribly repelled yet horribly fascinated. for there was in it a malicious hatred that startled her. She listened sullenly to his words. he sought. One of two had a wan ascetic look. It was a face that haunted you. the humped backs. drunk. and Arthur shut the door behind him.''Will you tell us what the powers are that the adept possesses?''They are enumerated in a Hebrew manuscript of the sixteenth century. He amused. abundantly loquacious. which Raggles.'At that moment a man strolled past them. if her friend chaffed him. 'There is one of his experiments which the doctor has withheld from you. 'She wept all over our food.

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